you ever have one of those days...

... when you start to wonder how long the ground beneath you will be able to hold the weight of your decisions?

when is the bottom going to finally cave in? and when it does, will I fly or sink?...

not on some life or death, depression type shit... I'm happy... really.

Just... just scared ya'll. Nervous.

Can't really see myself doing anything but music... just wonder sometimes if music feels the same way about me..

Everybody keeps telling me to be patient, but I'm not a patient person.

Speed up.

Two worlds.

-Dekk-

boring ice cubes?

Tim showed me this yesterday...

STEVE BRULE IS AN ICON!!

lmao

-Dekk-

sPPrrrrrrreeeeeeeaddD!

We're comin.. soon (that's what she said?)...

Anyways... had a good two days in the studio with Late Davis and the enormously talented Jason Normansen aka The Dust Will Settle...

Next up:

1. Finish Remix for Young Scolla (might be a pretty cool feature if all goes well)
2. Finish Daydreamin with Young Scolla (heard the hook... FIYAHH!!)
3. Begin electronic/dance project... (what? YEAAAAHHH!! I'ma do it... I'm starting a band.. REALLY!!! The members= Dekk, Kid Couture, The Dust Will Settle, Tim Moore, Late Davis and Randa Smith)... Band Name is forthcoming... or should it be "Band Name"?

-Dekk-

st st st st stuuuudio time tomorrow!!!!

back in the lab tomorrow... with Spread artist:

Late Davis

eventually there will be some product to back up all of the shit I've been talking... Until then, watch out for me on Young Scolla's Prelude to Perfection Mixtape, and there should also be an exclusive Brandun DeShay Remix on it's way...

I'll be in touch... like a hand...

-Dekk-

Drake- "So far Gone"

This is by a long shot my FAVORITE MIXTAPE OF 2009 THUS FAR!!! From the cover art to the last track this shit is stupid gangbusters....

-Dekk-

I said....

"sometimes I feel crazy like a famous person should be, but I ain't even famous...."

I'm not really sure what I meant by that, but I said it. Something inside of me hears greatness and it has nothing to do with my ears. It's like my soul can listen...

"Werd?"

Yeah.... I swear it. That's why I do this. That's the reason for the working poverty, the lonely nights, the coffee addiction and constant need for favors...

Dear family (relatives, friends and loved ones),

I apologize for my unconventional ways. By now I'm sure you're aware of the fact that the conventional comes easy to me. Put me in class, I'll pass it with colors... Put me in a job interview, the position is mine... so I can understand why it might be frustrating for you to see me struggle and claw my way through life.... All I can say is that this is what I hear. This is my reality and I've yet to meet a consequence that I'm not willing to accept. I don't fail, in fact I don't believe in failure... Please stick with me.. Believe in me and love me... I will not take you for granted... and once the song stops playing I promise to exit stage... But until then....

Two worlds.

-Dekk-

"I'm trynna do it all tonight... I got plans... I got a certain lust for life... And as it stands... Everything is going as right... As it can.." -Drake-

Young Scolla REMIX

Song is called "Infatuation".

Kind of electro meets booty shakin at an awkward hipster bar type feeling to it.. which is good.. right??

google Young Scolla or link to his blog "Scolla's World" by scrolling down my page and clicking... He's from Detroit but lives in DC now.. This is not the last of our collabs..

Enjoy.

-Dekk-

P.S.- of you wish to DOWNLOAD click DOWNLOAD

guess what???

presidents day tomorrow.....

WHO CARES???

not eye (yeah I said "eye")

Been a minute since I been in it and at that dinosaur... life is crazy... I'm starting to realize that others take my time for granted...

If I go out of my way for you it's not because I don't have anything else that I could be doing....

In fact, I have too much shit to get done... literally, I can't keep up...

SO PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT MY TIME IS PRECIOUS AND THAT IF I CHOOSE TO SPEND IT HELPING YOU OUT IN ANY WAY IT'S BECAUSE I GENUINELY CARE ENOUGH TO DO SO...

... not mad ya'll... really I'm not...

Back to the lecture at hand: Presidents day is tomorrow, meaning that I have the whole day to work on music and business....

I'm in a weird mood right now... probably should not be allowed to blog... kinda like drunk dialing or something....

*rips self away from keyboard*

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the DiNo BaNd...

Can't wait to cath these cocky bastards and pen them up in my backyard...

-Dekk-

"no one on the corner does blogger like us"

yeah it's true..

we need couples therapy...

Music and I, that is...

I'm starting to feel myself drift into a creative disconnect...

business is in the drivers seat instead of craft.

I can remember the times when I would spend days wrapped up in samples and instrumentals completely unaware of what it would take to have them heard. Nowadays I find myself making music because of how it sounds rather than because of how it feels. It reminds me of my previous relationship where I would often say "I love you" out of habit. Eventually I lost track of whether or not I actually ever meant it...

I'm starting to wonder if I really "mean it" when I'm in the studio these days...

I know that for the sake of image and business I probably shouldn't be admitting this right now... Frankly I don't give a fuck... Between a day job, hardly sleeping and copyright law it has become nearly impossible to gather the energy needed to create inspired music. Coffee makes me nervous... Alcohol makes me tired... and right now I feel lonely. Not lonely in terms of romance or friendship, but in terms of my relationship to music... Something is missing... the chills... the butterflies... the loop that never gets redundant...

There is a balance to be had between art and commerce... right now I'm stumbling... The good news is that I refuse to fall.

Two worlds.

-Dekk-

I really feel like people have slept on this for too long....

Little Dragon... this shit dropped in 2007 people!!

wuthca gonna do when they come for you......

Man this was my shit when it dropped... and to be honest I was probably way too young to have felt this shit the way that I did. All my friends were on some Savage Garden/Hanson type shit... Lol... Anyways, I've always loved this video and song...

off top... My 5 favorite Hip Hop albums EVER

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There you go.. Should give you a little background on DEKK!

my bad ya'll

My blogger game has been weeeeeaaaaakkkk!

I'ma start getting back in shape... Get my life right and all that ;-)

The first official EP that I have ever worked on drops this month. I'm proud of it. The disc will be sold non-profit style... All proceeds going to a charity yet to be named.

Title: Beautiful Music
Artist: Luck-one & Dekk

I will post a feature with several links on the official release date so that everybody can download it free of charge... I mean.. Not like anybody buys music these days anyway... Right?

Grammy's tonight.. *Sigh*

-Dekk-

I don't believe.....

... that love has a brain...

We've all heard it before, "true love will find you.." or "love catches us when we least expect it.."

I DON"T BELIEVE ANY OF THAT.

I believe that we all have the capacity to give and receive love and that some people inspire the best in us....

BUT I CANNOT ACCEPT THE NOTION THAT LOVE HAS A MYSTERIOUS POWER THAT OPERATES OUTSIDE OF OUR OWN CREATION.

In this world there is a clear relationship between COINCIDENCE and MEANING.

We create both.

Coincidence = unintentional

Meaning = intentional

When love "finds us" it is a result of a series of previous occurrences in the world. We then give that love meaning in order to a.) make our lives feel more special or b.) explain something that we simply cannot trace.

Love is real... but it does not find you, nor do you find it...

THERE IS NO "PLAN"

Some of us happen to meet someone that we are compatible with and some of us don't, but love cannot choose which of us is deserving.

WE ALL DESERVE LOVE.

Love can only survive for as long as TWO people are willing to WORK to keep it alive. It doesn't go away unless we (or one of us) allows it to.

Love and relationships are like anything else in life. If you wish to be successful you must a.) work hard and b.) get a little lucky.

luck = fortunate coincidence

-Dekk-

P.S.- Mother, I love you with all of my heart... Forever... Men are stupid for not doing the same. Fuck 'em.

and so it begins...

had a great time in the studio last night. Too much to discuss right now, but I promise that I'll get at you with details once things slow down..

Peace

-Dekk-

Really though.... I wonder....

How do ignorant people get rich?

Shouldn't there be some kind of knowledge requirement in order to control large quantities of asset?

Souljah Boy please share the secret....

Thanks in advance.

-Dekk-

on the eve of the day that things change for the rest of our lives...

Tomorrow morning @ 6:30am Arthur L. Jenkins will become a free man after an 8 year prison sentence.




"Have I Been Away Too Long?"- Recorded in 2006 (inside a prison)

He is one of my closest friends and Spread's first artist. We met in 2004 while I was doing volunteer work at an institution that he was trapped in. Through countless letters, illegal recording sessions and Sunday visits we quickly became family. There has seldom been a day in the last 4 years when his existence hasn't crossed my mind.

I don't really know how to feel right now....

It's an overwhelming thought to know that someone I care for will have the bittersweet taste of freedom for the first time since he was 15. He'll kiss his girl, hug is mom and friends and smile because that's what everyone will expect from him... but something inside me knows that deep inside he'll be terrified... There will certainly be challenges in the months and years to come... Bittersweet... I guess... Definitely more sweet than bitter..

When you finally read this A.J.,

I want you to know that I am here for you like any brother would be. Music has been our dream for some time, but what's most important to me is that you find happiness and love in whatever it is that you decide to put your efforts towards. You will be my best man and the guy I share a cigar with on the day of my first born. There is no limit to possibility so long as you believe that there is never just one answer. Keep your mind and your heart open and you will never fail.

Welcome home.

-Dekk-