Thursday, February 25, 2010

and the truth is



We allow money to disconnect us from everything. I often struggle to feel something when I create and it's because I've learned to create with monetary aspiration in mind. In fact, my studio sessions always end with a "can I sell this?"

People worry more about the cost of wedding than it's purpose, more about the status symbol of a home than it's ability to shelter and raise a family. I am guilty... Guilty of teaching myself not to feel... not to care... And now I feel homeless... I used to live less and love more and I miss it... There is a unique beauty that can only be brought to light when times are tough... It's as if the universe noticed that I forgot to feel and decided to send me a reminder and after all this time and effort I'm finally learning that music is an art that must "mean something" to it's creator. Listeners can interpret it however they like... but the source must be pure.... Funny thing... There was a time when I was 1/10th the artist, but my creative process was 10 times more true to the source. These days I don't even know the source. If someone asked me "what inspires you?" I honestly wouldn't know how to answer...

that's sad... especially when there are so many things in my life beaming with energy. The lover who gives her last dollar so that I can continue my journey. The Mother who offers a roof in my time of need. The Father who gifts a working vehicle so that I can get to and from studio sessions. The grandparent that leaves "I love you" on my voicemail knowing that I'll forget to call back. The friends who buy lunch, dinner and drinks. The fans that take a moment out of their day to send an email. The random acquaintance that leaves a genuine, helpful comment on a silly blog. I won't bore you with the entire list... you get the point... Now it's time for me to get the point.

ahhh... clarity is refreshing :-)

-Dekk-

5 comments:

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Funny. I was certain if you were asked about your inpiration the answer would be Bruce.

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Pedro Garcia Millan said...

PART 3
Sometimes it makes one wonder WHY there are NO good people that will step up (with God as their guide) and put a STOP to these M.A.D.?? That is one of the BIGGEST questions i ask myself almost everyday! Maybe people are SCARED? Maybe they are waiting for God to MAGICALLY guide them without realizing that God doesn't work in that manner/way.

I just HOPE somebody puts a STOP to M.A.D. or we are ALL going to be really in BIG trouble!

The above is a LOT to think about, believe me, i have been living it since 2005, and jobless to boot! And i am a Dr. so go figure?? But i WILL NEVER SELL MYSELF TO A DEMON OR THE M.A.D. so how about them cookies :)

Peace be unto you and please WAKE UP PEOPLE!
+Dick Cheney Loves the demon moloch from hell and wants to destroy earth too! Just look at what his
Moloch Axis Demoniac HALLIBURTON company did in the Gulf of Mexico with the offshore oil rig…need I say more? Cheney is RESPONSIBLE for the atmospheric CHEMTRAIL pollution program sprinkling toxic Aluminum & Barium Oxide to alter the weather and poison the plants, soil and people to make way for genetically modified foodstuffs to further poison us! STOP THESE DEMONS NOW!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

I want to remind you all of the problem of 10 year-old prepubescent girls being prostituted in the inner cities of America.
Why is it I am the only person who has any urgency to stop this?:::Because it is deliberate!!! The gods give you all the rope you need.

There was a very real perception that bi-racial was much worse for the white than it was for the person of color. The liberal culture screamed racism when there is a very reasonable explanation for this reality::::
In this white punishment known as the United States the person of color has already adopted the disfavors/temptations intended for another race. But by associating/mating with a person of color the white is newly adopting the disfavors of another culture.
And this is the reason why people of color are not welcome in the United States. The gods control everything:::The perception they want to create, the thoughts they want you to have.
People of color can't recover from absorbing the temptations from two cultures. And why they become more and more like so many blacks in America:::Veterans at absorbing the temptations of two cultures.
To further illustrate this is why California's educational system/funding was ranked #1 when California was white:::Education being the basis of the affluent economic system. Now even public higher education has become unaffordable.

Ronald Reagan spent the communist block into submission with defense buildup, and in the process increased the National debt from $1 trillion in 1980 to $6 trillion when he left office.
W charged both the Iraq and Afghanistan wars to the national debt, honest numbers to come.
The gods used W to initiate the "Great Recession" with deliberate legislation/regulation changes, allowing the sub-prime fiasco and corporate irresponsibility/criminal behavior which led to the multi-trillion dollar stimulous package, pocketted by Republican friends and donors::::$5 trillion charged to the National credit card.
This corruption is one element of evil in the party of good. War mongering is another.
Damned if you do, Damned if you don't::::With the Democrats you subscribe to social decay via liberlism, which WILL lead to the Apocalypse. Republicans are being used by the gods to bankrupt the United States, ultimately motivating people to the point of "desperation prayer" once anarchy presides::::Punishment designed to correct your behavior.

What happens when people learn from me and stop entering clone hosting? Like the wealthy who "call the shots"? Or does the sleazy Italian rule positioning of the last 2000 years essentially seal our fate? They already destroyed our planet. Next step is to finish it off?

Anonymous said...

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